Wednesday, January 11, 2012
A New Nightmare
I had the weirdest and scariest dream last night. I dreamt that I was getting married. Now, on a regular day, that dream would have been awesome! BUT in my dream, I got married because I got pregnant (my gosh)! And that's not the worst part - I'm marrying an immature person who works as a dancer with an unstable income!!! My heart wanted to jump out of my body, I tell you!
The dream was very vivid, and can actually be close to reality as I see the same circumstance happened to some people. This is why it got me really scared for the life of me.
The gown I was wearing was really nice, and so was the bouquet (pink tulips, baby)! The wedding was simple given that it was not well-prepared for (hello, nabuntis nga e!). Here's the thing, as a practical person, I've never wished for a grand wedding. But after seeing myself in a gown, with only about 10 people around me, sitting down on a restaurant for a wedding reception (ordering a la carte, mind you), I guess I should start wishing for more fabulous stuff from now on! Haha! In the dream, while eating, I was even thinking that this guy (my groom, ahem) better pay for this dinner! Hahaha!
It's funny how now that I'm older, nightmares have taken on a whole different meaning. When before it was ghosts I was scared about, now it's instability, enduring commitments, and finding the right man which take on my subconsciousness. I wonder what this dream means...Could it be that I am to marry someone sloppy and immature? Or the opposite of that?? OR! Could it be that I am not to marry at all given that this wedding scenario scared me?? Ayayay... I couldn't tell for sure, all I know is that it brought to the fore my real fears.
Boy, I may just be the happiest person to wake up at 3:30 in the morning. Phew!
PS. In fairness to me and my groom (LOL!), we looked a lot better that those people in the cartoon! I was so slim in the gown (yessss!), and the guy, albeit his financial instability (but who came from a well-to-do family, as stated in my dream, haha!), was sort of good looking. ;) But, Lord, I'll take on the not-so-good looking guy who can give me security, over a hot guy who can't, any time of the day. I promise!