So, things change and eventually, you'd be okay. That place may still be far from sight, or may not even be conceivable at the moment, but trust that you'll get there. In time.
Normally, when you lose something, you get a replacement. That's supposed to fill the void of that whatever you lost. But, sometimes, with an ugly fate, that replacement won't be anything else but a reminder of what you've lost in the first place. And you won't be able to move on. Because you claimed something early on that's not even yours. And you won't be able to move on because you don't want to. Can somebody give someone some closure?